7.02.2024

Island journal :: entry eight

 i completed my stone paths today. i can't wait to complete my island. i also was able to add some small assets that are interesting and typical eye-candy as well. all that hard work for around a few hours just to drop one star. i guess it's because i'm missing a villager, but i'm more preoccupied on designing the island. shouldn't the game give more props and kudos to people who are more worried about the appearance of the island to appease isabelle, tourists and more?

nonetheless, i'm excited for the island tour video. i was promised a capture card but it's taking a long time because the person who's supposed to give it to me to borrow misplaced it. Isn't That Obnoxious.

 anyway, a kind hearted person was able to give me a few items that i needed from my wishlist today, although he rated my island 2.4 out of 5 stars, which is honestly okay because i need to apply myself more, and i was happy being close to 3 stars within the game.

that's all i have to say for now. thanks for reading.

- snowy zuo

Birthday

 Today is my sister's birthday. And my best friend's birthday.

Happy Birthday



r̸̨̢̪͙͇̝̲̪͙̘̮͓͈͔̉̽́̑̽̐͆̑͛̈̑̾̇̚̕͜ ̵̡̢̫͖̫̝̻̺̪͔͈̾̔̔͌́͆̀̈́̊̆̾́̕ȩ̷̧̰̹̞̟̤̮̰̹͓̦̱̱̌͜ ̴̢̘̝̝̘̯̤̰̳̮̼͈̲̀̋͂͑̑̊͋̆͆͊ǐ̶̢̟̯̯̥̼̝̝̠̟̥̟͙̾͊͐̔͂̓̎̚ ̵̡̻͍̣̼͉̫̝͕͕̪͓̝̟͋̀̈́͋̀͌̐n̴̢̠̙̟͎̫̬͓̥̦̻̔̇͒̅̆͛̍̂̏̏͆͠ͅ ̷̫̩̮͙̜̯̤͇̫̘͈̋̐͊c̸̨̛̻̼͙̪͓͇̘̯̏̍̓͛̎̿̕͝ ̷̹̲̯̲͎̼͉̟̫̰̘̭̔̌̒̎̓͗̆͘̕͜ạ̵̛̛̹̻̋̍͆̋̑̍͊́̐͘͜ ̴̧̥̠̦̳̠̳̩̩͕͍͈̖̦̌̓̅̀́̃r̸̡̧̛̩̺̲̤̼̲͕̻̣͚̬̄͜ ̸̡̛̛͎̻͓͖͂͛̈́̄͋̀̑̍͐̆͆̈́͝n̸͔̳̹̖̘͚̝̱͋́͜ͅͅ ̵̝̠͓̹͎̥̘͙̥̟͔̊͂̓͗̀͗̿̇̆̓ạ̵̭͗̈́̿̓̾̇̉͝ ̷̡̡͍͈̻͖̳̖̜͎͉̝̺͓̉̾̔̋͜͝͠ţ̵̧͚̦̲̬͙̟̼̬̤̠̬͇̝̔̆̓̍͆̀́̈̚͠ ̵̢͖͍̩̩̠̻̟̠̮͌͗̈̕ī̷̡̧̳̬̺̹͘͘͝ ̵̧̬̮͕̫̦̦̙̻̠̺͉͉͕̉̈̄̽͊͐̽̾̾̽̽̚o̷̧̨̖̺͎̟͙͈̭̦̎́̃͗̑̑͛̽̈́̓̓͆͌͊̅ ̷͈̳͖͈̠̞̥̖̥̫͕͚͔̃̾͜ͅn̴͈̟̰̬̦̳̫͈̹̘͗͒̊͜͝ II

 


So the truth about this generation, this century is that this is both an afterlife and an aftermath of self preservation of the souls of the 1900s. It depends on how you self preserved and how you came back, although the more baby faced you are, the more it was dependent on your family. Or something.

7.01.2024

i think its

 i think its possible to be so happy that you can die

Idol Profile

Name: Melody Wu

Height: 5'2 (157cm)

Genre: J-Pop, City pop, House, Bubblegum Pop

Age: 19

Birthday: November 18th 

-WIP-

๐Ÿ”ณ

 


    ๐”–๐”ฌ โ„‘ ๐”ฐ๐”ฒ๐”ญ๐”ญ๐”ฌ๐”ฐ๐”ข ๐”ฑ๐”ฅ๐”ฆ๐”ฐ ๐”ฆ๐”ฐ ๐”ž ๐”ช๐”ฒ๐”ฐ๐”ฆ๐” ๐”ž๐”ฉ ๐”ž๐”ซ๐”ž๐”ฉ๐”ถ๐”ฐ๐”ฆ๐”ฐ ๐”ฌ๐”ฃ ๐”ฑ๐”ฅ๐”ข ๐”ช๐”ฒ๐”ฐ๐”ฆ๐”  ๐”ณ๐”ฆ๐”ก๐”ข๐”ฌ, '๐”—๐”ฏ๐”ถ ๐”„๐”ค๐”ž๐”ฆ๐”ซ'. ๐”—๐”ฅ๐”ข ๐”ž๐”ฐ๐”ฆ๐”ž๐”ซ ๐”ค๐”ฒ๐”ถ ๐”ฏ๐”ข๐”ญ๐”ฏ๐”ข๐”ฐ๐”ข๐”ซ๐”ฑ๐”ฐ, ๐”ฑ๐”ฌ ๐”ช๐”ข, ๐”ญ๐”ข๐”ฏ๐”ฐ๐”ฌ๐”ซ๐”ž๐”ฉ๐”ฉ๐”ถ, ๐”ช๐”ถ ๐”ข๐”ต ๐”ž๐”ซ๐”ก ๐”ฑ๐”ฅ๐”ข ๐”ฏ๐”ž๐”ญ๐”ญ๐”ข๐”ฏ ๐”ค๐”ฒ๐”ถ ๐”ฆ๐”ซ ๐”ฑ๐”ฅ๐”ข ๐”Ÿ๐”ž๐” ๐”จ๐”ค๐”ฏ๐”ฌ๐”ฒ๐”ซ๐”ก ๐”ž๐”ฉ๐”ด๐”ž๐”ถ๐”ฐ ๐”ฏ๐”ข๐”ช๐”ฆ๐”ซ๐”ก๐”ข๐”ก ๐”ช๐”ข ๐”ฌ๐”ฃ ๐”ช๐”ถ ๐”ฃ๐”ž๐”ฑ๐”ฅ๐”ข๐”ฏ. โ„‘ ๐”ฏ๐”ข๐”ž๐”ฉ๐”ฉ๐”ถ ๐”ก๐”ฆ๐”ก ๐”ฏ๐”ข๐”ฐ๐”ญ๐”ข๐” ๐”ฑ ๐”ช๐”ถ ๐”ฃ๐”ž๐”ฑ๐”ฅ๐”ข๐”ฏ ๐”ฒ๐”ซ๐”ฑ๐”ฆ๐”ฉ ๐”ด๐”ข ๐”ฅ๐”ž๐”ก ๐”ช๐”ž๐”ซ๐”ถ ๐”ฃ๐”ž๐”ฉ๐”ฉ๐”ฆ๐”ซ๐”ค ๐”ฌ๐”ฒ๐”ฑ๐”ฐ ๐”ด๐”ฅ๐”ข๐”ซ โ„‘ ๐”ด๐”ž๐”ฐ ๐”ฑ๐”ฅ๐”ฆ๐”ฏ๐”ฑ๐”ข๐”ข๐”ซ. โ„‘ ๐”ก๐”ฌ๐”ซ'๐”ฑ ๐”ฅ๐”ž๐”ฑ๐”ข ๐”ฅ๐”ฆ๐”ช, โ„‘ ๐”ง๐”ฒ๐”ฐ๐”ฑ ๐”ฐ๐”ข๐”ข ๐”ฅ๐”ฆ๐”ช ๐”ž๐”ฐ ๐”ซ๐”ž๐”ฆ๐”ณ๐”ข ๐”ž๐”ซ๐”ก ๐”ฑ๐”ฌ๐”ฌ ๐” ๐”ฌ๐”ช๐”ฃ๐”ฌ๐”ฏ๐”ฑ๐”ž๐”Ÿ๐”ฉ๐”ข ๐”ฆ๐”ซ ๐”ฑ๐”ฅ๐”ฆ๐”ฐ ๐”ก๐”ฏ๐”ข๐”ž๐”ก๐”ฃ๐”ฒ๐”ฉ ๐”ข๐”ซ๐”ณ๐”ฆ๐”ฏ๐”ฌ๐”ซ๐”ช๐”ข๐”ซ๐”ฑ. โ„‘ ๐”จ๐”ซ๐”ฌ๐”ด ๐”ž ๐”ฉ๐”ฌ๐”ฑ ๐”ฌ๐”ฃ ๐”ญ๐”ข๐”ฌ๐”ญ๐”ฉ๐”ข ๐” ๐”ฌ๐”ฒ๐”ฉ๐”ก ๐”Ÿ๐”ข ๐”ฐ๐”ž๐”ถ ๐”ฑ๐”ฅ๐”ž๐”ฑ โ„‘ ๐”ž๐”ช ๐”ญ๐”ฏ๐”ฌ๐”ง๐”ข๐” ๐”ฑ๐”ฆ๐”ซ๐”ค ๐”Ÿ๐”ฒ๐”ฑ ๐”ฐ๐”ฌ๐”ช๐”ข๐”ฑ๐”ฆ๐”ช๐”ข๐”ฐ ๐”ถ๐”ฌ๐”ฒ ๐”ซ๐”ข๐”ข๐”ก ๐”ฑ๐”ฌ ๐”ญ๐”ฏ๐”ฌ๐”ง๐”ข๐” ๐”ฑ ๐”ฑ๐”ฌ ๐” ๐”ฌ๐”ญ๐”ข. ๐”„๐”ซ๐”ถ๐”ด๐”ž๐”ถ๐”ฐ, ๐”ฑ๐”ฅ๐”ข ๐”ญ๐”ž๐”ฏ๐”ฑ ๐”ด๐”ฅ๐”ข๐”ฏ๐”ข ๐”„๐”ž๐”ฉ๐”ฆ๐”ถ๐”ž๐”ฅ ๐”ฆ๐”ฐ ๐”ฐ๐”ญ๐”ฆ๐”ซ๐”ซ๐”ฆ๐”ซ๐”ค ๐”ด๐”ฆ๐”ฑ๐”ฅ ๐”ฅ๐”ฆ๐”ช ๐”ฏ๐”ข๐”ช๐”ฆ๐”ซ๐”ก๐”ฐ ๐”ช๐”ข ๐”ฌ๐”ฃ ๐”ฑ๐”ฅ๐”ข ๐”ฅ๐”ž๐”ญ๐”ญ๐”ถ ๐”ฉ๐”ฆ๐”ค๐”ฅ๐”ฑ๐”ฅ๐”ข๐”ž๐”ฏ๐”ฑ๐”ข๐”ก ๐”ช๐”ข๐”ช๐”ฌ๐”ฏ๐”ฆ๐”ข๐”ฐ ๐”ด๐”ข ๐”ฒ๐”ฐ๐”ข๐”ก ๐”ฑ๐”ฌ ๐”ฅ๐”ž๐”ณ๐”ข ๐”ฆ๐”ซ ๐”ฅ๐”ฆ๐”ค๐”ฅ ๐”ฐ๐” ๐”ฅ๐”ฌ๐”ฌ๐”ฉ ๐”ฑ๐”ฌ๐”ค๐”ข๐”ฑ๐”ฅ๐”ข๐”ฏ ๐”Ÿ๐”ข๐”ฃ๐”ฌ๐”ฏ๐”ข ๐”ฆ ๐”ช๐”ฌ๐”ณ๐”ข๐”ก ๐”ฌ๐”ซ ๐”ฃ๐”ฏ๐”ฌ๐”ช ๐”ฅ๐”ฆ๐”ช. ๐”—๐”ฅ๐”ข๐”ถ ๐”ด๐”ฆ๐”ฉ๐”ฉ ๐”ž๐”ฉ๐”ด๐”ž๐”ถ๐”ฐ ๐”ฏ๐”ข๐”ฐ๐”ฆ๐”ก๐”ข ๐”ฆ๐”ซ ๐”ช๐”ถ ๐”ฅ๐”ข๐”ž๐”ฏ๐”ฑ.

Aaliyah did not deserve to die

 i'm not a goddess, so who am i to really decide whoever or not someone lives or dies? 

i feel like she mastered that "facade" of being a public icon that everyone knows you by your name by handling things with kindness instead of a blunt hard-headed attitude that a lot of women in the industry carry today. aaliyah did not die because she was "Too kind". sometimes life just throws harsh things at you out of nowhere. i'm still greiving her and i plan to visit her. 

i just hope she is happy and safe wherever she is. thank you for working hard.

<3

r̸̨̢̪͙͇̝̲̪͙̘̮͓͈͔̉̽́̑̽̐͆̑͛̈̑̾̇̚̕͜ ̵̡̢̫͖̫̝̻̺̪͔͈̾̔̔͌́͆̀̈́̊̆̾́̕ȩ̷̧̰̹̞̟̤̮̰̹͓̦̱̱̌͜ ̴̢̘̝̝̘̯̤̰̳̮̼͈̲̀̋͂͑̑̊͋̆͆͊ǐ̶̢̟̯̯̥̼̝̝̠̟̥̟͙̾͊͐̔͂̓̎̚ ̵̡̻͍̣̼͉̫̝͕͕̪͓̝̟͋̀̈́͋̀͌̐n̴̢̠̙̟͎̫̬͓̥̦̻̔̇͒̅̆͛̍̂̏̏͆͠ͅ ̷̫̩̮͙̜̯̤͇̫̘͈̋̐͊c̸̨̛̻̼͙̪͓͇̘̯̏̍̓͛̎̿̕͝ ̷̹̲̯̲͎̼͉̟̫̰̘̭̔̌̒̎̓͗̆͘̕͜ạ̵̛̛̹̻̋̍͆̋̑̍͊́̐͘͜ ̴̧̥̠̦̳̠̳̩̩͕͍͈̖̦̌̓̅̀́̃r̸̡̧̛̩̺̲̤̼̲͕̻̣͚̬̄͜ ̸̡̛̛͎̻͓͖͂͛̈́̄͋̀̑̍͐̆͆̈́͝n̸͔̳̹̖̘͚̝̱͋́͜ͅͅ ̵̝̠͓̹͎̥̘͙̥̟͔̊͂̓͗̀͗̿̇̆̓ạ̵̭͗̈́̿̓̾̇̉͝ ̷̡̡͍͈̻͖̳̖̜͎͉̝̺͓̉̾̔̋͜͝͠ţ̵̧͚̦̲̬͙̟̼̬̤̠̬͇̝̔̆̓̍͆̀́̈̚͠ ̵̢͖͍̩̩̠̻̟̠̮͌͗̈̕ī̷̡̧̳̬̺̹͘͘͝ ̵̧̬̮͕̫̦̦̙̻̠̺͉͉͕̉̈̄̽͊͐̽̾̾̽̽̚o̷̧̨̖̺͎̟͙͈̭̦̎́̃͗̑̑͛̽̈́̓̓͆͌͊̅ ̷͈̳͖͈̠̞̥̖̥̫͕͚͔̃̾͜ͅn̴͈̟̰̬̦̳̫͈̹̘͗͒̊͜͝

 


๐•ฟ๐–” ๐–—๐–Š๐–Ž๐–“๐–ˆ๐–†๐–—๐–Ž๐–“๐–†๐–™๐–Š, ๐–† ๐–‘๐–Ž๐–›๐–Ž๐–“๐–Œ ๐–•๐–Š๐–—๐–˜๐–”๐–“ ๐–’๐–š๐–˜๐–™ ๐–‡๐–Š ๐–ˆ๐–”๐–“๐–“๐–Š๐–ˆ๐–™๐–Š๐–‰ ๐–œ๐–Ž๐–™๐– ๐–™๐–๐–Š ๐–‘๐–Ž๐–›๐–Ž๐–“๐–Œ ๐–œ๐–”๐–—๐–‘๐–‰ ๐–†๐–“๐–‰ ๐–Ž๐–“๐–™๐–Š๐–—๐–†๐–ˆ๐–™ ๐–†๐–“๐–‰ ๐–’๐–†๐–“๐–Ž๐–•๐–š๐–‘๐–†๐–™๐–Š ๐–™๐–๐–Š ๐–‘๐–Ž๐–›๐–Ž๐–“๐–Œ ๐–•๐–Š๐–”๐–•๐–‘๐–Š ๐–œ๐–๐–” ๐–—๐–”๐–†๐–’ ๐–™๐–๐–Š ๐–œ๐–”๐–—๐–‘๐–‰ ๐–š๐–“๐–‰๐–Š๐–—๐–“๐–Š๐–†๐–™๐– ๐–™๐–๐–Š ๐–‰๐–Š๐–†๐–‰.


They Must Be Losing Me

 They must be losing me. in the middle of this so called psychosis episodes, i ran away from my father after i was waiting to get my medication. i trust the voices throughout all my life all the time. I took a chance to report my sexual abuse from my brother to the right authorities by taking a walk outside and my mother was close to tears about how she had to almost "chase me outside". i don't feel like their daughter anymore. just someone who lives in their house. there is no family thanks to what my brother did but the blame for "breaking up the family" will fall on me if i were to escalate it even more. my body is fragile despite all the nonsense it's been through, and unfairness. i'm glad that i'm starving myself, because this new state it is in, is ?????? - this is all i have to say .

thanks.

Men in the American Girl Fandom

 Honestly, I am very strongly opinionated about men in subcultures that were made for a women demographic. There are tons of cases of women being oppressed by men, and being abused in horrific ways. That's why it's insanely thoughtful and world changing for a franchise such as American Girl to exist, because it can really change a girl's life, especially how she perceives herself and so on.

I admit that I cannot be this entirely accepting person when it comes to one's interest. I can't help but subconsciously label male doll collectors as "creepy" if I don't understand why they are doing it. 

It feels disappointing to watch male collectors who seem to invade safe spaces by women to force their own inclusion inside of the fandom. They have the audacity to complain about how people are trying their best in their gatekeeping efforts onto certain things in the fandom as well, and I don't like it when people complain that they're receiving too many things with their doll. It makes me uncomfortable because there's tons of women and girls that would appreciate owning these dolls and toys, and it's all going to this nitpicky guy who may have too much money on his hands.

It's okay for me to not be overly accepting. I feel like people are so overly insecure in their life that they force theirselves to be included in safe spaces for vulnerable minorities and they fucking miss the point of why something like this even exists in the first place. For instance, I felt deeply uncomfortable reading this article about a little boy who wanted inclusion in the Precure series because the magical girl franchise is honestly a novelty. It's difficult to come by. Young girls are empowered and femininity is not misrepresented, it's shown in a normal ray of light in all of it's beauty. How can that serve a little boy? Not to mention there are countless media made specifically for boys. I hated how the author sympathized with this kid, especially because they are a woman and they completely ignored or sidestepped the wonders that magical girl franchises are doing for women who are already suffering. I hate it so much because it makes me feel like if I even have a place in the fandom if it's full of fake idiots like this, who don't even understand the power of representation in the franchises they are "totally big obsessed fans of!". I think anyone, especially the target demographic of something, can be a fan of anything they please, ranging from liking it a little bit, to a whole lot. 

I'm upset at how people are making excuses to force theirselves into others' safe worlds. It's easier for me to notice because it's difficult for me to have a stable and consistent safe world that is not threatened or destroyed by malicious people consistently. I'm trying my best to be happy. I hate people sometimes.

- Cassandra Zuo

Island journal :: entry eight

 i completed my stone paths today. i can't wait to complete my island. i also was able to add some small assets that are interesting and...